Friday, 8 June 2018

We Broke Up......

Well where do I start, so if you never saw my catch up post you might not of guessed I took a bit of a blogger break and I explained in that there was many factors one that I wasn't ready to talk about, I feel it's now time I tell you, as i've finally accepted, that it was the right thing to do. 

Little disclaimer sort of thing this isn't going to be a bitchy post just an another reason why I stopped for a bit. 

So as the title shows me and Paul have split up, it's been about 4/5 months, it wasn't sudden well when the decision was made it was but things weren't right for ages, I would say at least a year. Was there anyone to blame, not really, me and Paul got together when I was 18, i'm now 21, you grow up, you realise what you want, you drift apart, you become incompatible. 

That's what generally happened for us, we were opposites and even though people say opposites attract, they aren't compatible, we were completely different which at the age of 21 was starting to show. 

I would say around the time I turned 21, I was going into my final year of uni, I was scared, knowing soon you would have to properly grow up and I think that's when the talk of separating happened, 5 months later it was done, it was over, it took 5 months to get to the point of both agreeing but once agreed it happened sudden, everyone was shocked but also not surprised, as a lot of people realised we were drifting apart and becoming unhappy. Once you've reached the point of becoming unhappy and what the other person was doing, really irritated you, then you know how it's going to end. 

That's all there is to say, I do wish him well but at the end of the day when you start to become unhappy, you have to reevaluate, even that does mean letting someone go. I think I should mention that people were shocked on how well I handled it and coped and I think that's because I knew it was coming, I reached the stage of being unhappy and needing to change, I started focusing on myself which helped me get through it, I am aware everyone handles things differently. Shortly after I felt guilty of being happy and that got me down because I started questioning whether I should be, i've finally realised there's only yourself who can really take care of you, so you need to treat yourself right, you should never feel guilty of doing something that will help yourself. 

The reason why I knew I had to write this post was because he was shared on my blog, so I felt it was only necessary to do so. 

Thank you for reading

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